Friday, March 30, 2007
Art n' stuff
After seeing this on the hour, I wanted to know more about the artist known as Banksy. So I found his website, check it out.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
My Daze
Yesterday I arrived at UVIC campus at approx 7:15 am, I left at approx 9:35 pm. This morning I awoke at approx 5:25 am to get ready for Vanpool. At that point in time I was ready to shove my whole university/academic career down the toilet for another hours precious sleep. Thank god this term is nearly done.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Windswept and Interesting
My Mother, the great explorer, looking all fabulous and exotic, with bamboo stuff in background. This past week she climbed mount Sinai.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Questions, Queries, etc.
I will do my toefl probably through U Vic on a bunch of weekends in July...maybe. I would have to figure out transportation. Anyone interested in taking that class with me, we could car pool? Only $954.00.
Right now the scenario that I am leaning towards is moving to Cairo for a year before going back to UBC. I think I'd like to spend a year or two abroad, maybe a year in Cairo, and a year in Korea. If anyone wants to come with I am open to destination changes, I just want to not be in Canada for sometime.
Once I finish the degree at UBC, I don't know what I will do, maybe some more time overseas, or maybe I will transfer to another university to study education.
I would really love to spend some more time in France. Maybe I will see about doing my education degree in Europe, or even more exciting...Halifax!
I think I had an epiphany the other day and it was a very simple one: I have to do what will make me happy, not what will please other people, or what society seems to dictate as appropriate. I won't ever be wealthy, I know that, but I want to be happy, and I think that is far more important. I can't worry about money, if I focused only on that I would never go anywhere or do anything.
Good Lord, I am turning into my Mother.
Right now the scenario that I am leaning towards is moving to Cairo for a year before going back to UBC. I think I'd like to spend a year or two abroad, maybe a year in Cairo, and a year in Korea. If anyone wants to come with I am open to destination changes, I just want to not be in Canada for sometime.
Once I finish the degree at UBC, I don't know what I will do, maybe some more time overseas, or maybe I will transfer to another university to study education.
I would really love to spend some more time in France. Maybe I will see about doing my education degree in Europe, or even more exciting...Halifax!
I think I had an epiphany the other day and it was a very simple one: I have to do what will make me happy, not what will please other people, or what society seems to dictate as appropriate. I won't ever be wealthy, I know that, but I want to be happy, and I think that is far more important. I can't worry about money, if I focused only on that I would never go anywhere or do anything.
Good Lord, I am turning into my Mother.
Quote of The Day
If you always do what you want to do at least one person is pleased.
-Katherine Hepburn
-Katherine Hepburn
Friday, March 23, 2007
Possibilities
I have been spending a great deal of time thinking about what to do when I am done at
U VIC. Here are some of my choices:
1) Do my toefl certificate
2) Go to Korea teach English there
3) Go to Cairo live with Valerie and teach English there
4) Go to Vancouver finish my theatre degree
5) Apply for the journalism program*
6) Apply for the librarian studies program*
7) Apply for the education program at any one of a number of universities*
*The last three are pretty much contingent on finishing my UBC degree.
U VIC. Here are some of my choices:
1) Do my toefl certificate
2) Go to Korea teach English there
3) Go to Cairo live with Valerie and teach English there
4) Go to Vancouver finish my theatre degree
5) Apply for the journalism program*
6) Apply for the librarian studies program*
7) Apply for the education program at any one of a number of universities*
*The last three are pretty much contingent on finishing my UBC degree.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Monday, March 19, 2007
Quotes of the Day
So a few quotes here for you from the one and only Douglas Adams.
"If it looks like a duck, and quacks like a duck, we have at least to consider the possibility that we have a small aquatic bird of the family anatidae on our hands."
"The ships hung in the sky in much the same way that bricks don't."
"My doctor says that I have a malformed public-duty gland and a natural deficiency in moral fibre, and that I am therefore excused from saving Universes."
"You live and learn. At any rate, you live."
"If it looks like a duck, and quacks like a duck, we have at least to consider the possibility that we have a small aquatic bird of the family anatidae on our hands."
"The ships hung in the sky in much the same way that bricks don't."
"My doctor says that I have a malformed public-duty gland and a natural deficiency in moral fibre, and that I am therefore excused from saving Universes."
"You live and learn. At any rate, you live."
Rollercoaster
I have a very good friend who is suffering. Not physically but I am sure the emotional tole is probably beginning to wear on him. I am talking about depression, and that horrible feeling of despair. The existential crisis that many 20 somethings seem to crash into. I have had my fair share of this, and sometimes I still find myself mired in that horrible sticky feeling. It is like emotional molasses, you feel trapped and don't want to move or go out or do anything.
At my worst I found myself seriously pondering a medicinal milkshake in order to end my pain. What prevented me from hurting myself was the thought of what it would do to the people I loved. For a time, they are what kept me going. About a year after that incident, my cousin was killed crossing the road on his way home from a bookstore, this threw me right back into depression land. I thought that being with my Family would help, but it was so draining trying to be strong, and trying to be there for all of them that I found myself tried in knots. There is only so much I could deal with, and because I had merely repressed my other issues, it all bubbled over until I was a complete wreck.
Pulling myself out of that pit was and is the hardest thing I have ever done. My psychiatrist worked with me on techniques for dealing, going for walks, avoiding escapism, writing a daily diary, practicing breathing techniques, and finding new ways of expressing myself. I forget who said it but there is a great quote "remember we are all in this together, alone." The only one who can solve my problems is me. I'm not saying that people can't help, I'm just saying that the essential choice to go on had to be mine. There is a great book by Anne Cameron called Tales of the Copper Woman, in which she has several short stories. One of the stories that had an impact on me was about this group of wise women. The women would listen to any problem brought before them, and then offer suggestions. They would do this twice, and then if the person with the problem returned and had not acted on the problem, they would turn their backs. I find thinking about that story helps me to avoid wallowing in whatever is getting me down. Happiness is something I have to work to achieve, and if I don't deal with my issues they will bite me in my ass. Also it isn't fair of me too continually lean on my friends for support, initially yes, but not indefinitely. As the cliche goes friendship is a two way street.
It is not easy to share these experiences, but I have posted this because I think that depression has some ugly stigmas attached and people still have a great deal of difficult discussing it. I don't want my friend to think that he is alone, and I hope he finds something that will make his struggle easier.
At my worst I found myself seriously pondering a medicinal milkshake in order to end my pain. What prevented me from hurting myself was the thought of what it would do to the people I loved. For a time, they are what kept me going. About a year after that incident, my cousin was killed crossing the road on his way home from a bookstore, this threw me right back into depression land. I thought that being with my Family would help, but it was so draining trying to be strong, and trying to be there for all of them that I found myself tried in knots. There is only so much I could deal with, and because I had merely repressed my other issues, it all bubbled over until I was a complete wreck.
Pulling myself out of that pit was and is the hardest thing I have ever done. My psychiatrist worked with me on techniques for dealing, going for walks, avoiding escapism, writing a daily diary, practicing breathing techniques, and finding new ways of expressing myself. I forget who said it but there is a great quote "remember we are all in this together, alone." The only one who can solve my problems is me. I'm not saying that people can't help, I'm just saying that the essential choice to go on had to be mine. There is a great book by Anne Cameron called Tales of the Copper Woman, in which she has several short stories. One of the stories that had an impact on me was about this group of wise women. The women would listen to any problem brought before them, and then offer suggestions. They would do this twice, and then if the person with the problem returned and had not acted on the problem, they would turn their backs. I find thinking about that story helps me to avoid wallowing in whatever is getting me down. Happiness is something I have to work to achieve, and if I don't deal with my issues they will bite me in my ass. Also it isn't fair of me too continually lean on my friends for support, initially yes, but not indefinitely. As the cliche goes friendship is a two way street.
It is not easy to share these experiences, but I have posted this because I think that depression has some ugly stigmas attached and people still have a great deal of difficult discussing it. I don't want my friend to think that he is alone, and I hope he finds something that will make his struggle easier.
Monday, March 12, 2007
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
It has been a bit since my last post. Lots of stuff going on. Been to the doctor, have to go two more times...stupid sickness. They don't know what is wrong with me yet. Can't sleep, can't breathe, bit of a bother. School is almost done. Trip planning is in full swing. Turns out Valerie is coming home this summer, sometime in July I believe. She is still in Egypt, and I don't know if she likes it but she does enjoy the warmth. Anyway this is beginning to shape up like one of those horrid insincere Christmas letters, so thats enough of that.
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Small Rant
Shut the fuck up!
Seriously!
This morning in my class there were these two girls who would not stop talking. I could barely hear the Proff over their insipid banter. Honestly who cares about your Cancun vacations. twats! I don't spend $485 a class to listen to that kind of crap.
Then I went to the computer lab to do some work on my essay. Same thing happened! I can understand if you are in the computer lab working together with someone else on a project, that is fine. But if you are in the lab gabbing away about some girl who supposedly hates you, and has a perfect life, fully expect someone (me) to be tempted to throw a computer at you.
While I am pretty sure I have some unresolved anger issues, I was not the only one vexed.
Seriously!
This morning in my class there were these two girls who would not stop talking. I could barely hear the Proff over their insipid banter. Honestly who cares about your Cancun vacations. twats! I don't spend $485 a class to listen to that kind of crap.
Then I went to the computer lab to do some work on my essay. Same thing happened! I can understand if you are in the computer lab working together with someone else on a project, that is fine. But if you are in the lab gabbing away about some girl who supposedly hates you, and has a perfect life, fully expect someone (me) to be tempted to throw a computer at you.
While I am pretty sure I have some unresolved anger issues, I was not the only one vexed.
Saturday, March 3, 2007
Quote of the day
I know he is a jerk and everything but that Prince Charming makes me hotter than July.
-Ugly Step-Sister
Shrek the Third
-Ugly Step-Sister
Shrek the Third
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